Send up to three poems on the subject of or at least mentioning the words hell and/or heaven, totaling up to 150 lines in length including stanza breaks, in the body of an email message or attached in a Word file to donkingfishercampbell@gmail.com by 11:59 PM PDT on September 22nd. No PDF's please. Color and B&W artwork are also desired. Please send in JPG form. No late submissions accepted. Poets and artists published in Four Feathers Press Online Edition: Hell or Heaven will be published online and invited to read at the Saturday Afternoon Poetry Zoom meeting on Saturday, September 23rd between 3 and 5 pm PST.

Friday, September 29, 2023

Lorelei Kay

Banning the Bean


Dashing home after third grade, I pushed aside

our heavy front door and ran inside hollering,

“Mom, I’m…” when the odor stopped me cold.

 

What in tarnation was that horrid smell?

Couldn’t be—not in our home—not coffee.

Our religion banned that brown bean.   

 

It reeked of revolting sin. Disobedience.

Dereliction. Disgraceful enough to separate

our family eternally in the heavens.

 

Mom hurriedly, apologetically, explained.

The brew was doctor’s orders. Prescribed

to hopefully curb her excruciating migraines.

 

I don’t recall that dank odor ever permeating

our home again, but I do recall Mom’s lifelong

struggle with her horrendous headaches.

 

Did guilt keep her from rebrewing the beans?

 

It’s been many years. Much has changed.

The aroma of my morning cup of freshly brewed

coffee wafts up, surrounding me with warmth

 

and filling me with memories. Thoughts drift

to Mom’s dilemma, and I envision how wondrous

it would be if she might now be reposing

 

on a cloud, at last headache-free, a radiant angel

presenting her on each breaking dawn with

the freshest mug of heavenly-scented coffee

 

in the universe, sweetened to perfection, laced

with starry-like swirls of cream gleaned from

the milky way—and to top it off, each golden

 

cup served completely, and eternally, guilt free

Sunday, September 24, 2023

R A Ruadh

4H Club  

(a Heptet of Heaven Hell Haiku)


Billionaires promise

heaven as long as we work

to build our own hell


Man’s heaven requires

a hell of women’s bodies

to lift them on high


Heaven versus hell

is based on an assumption

of powerlessness


Hell is creative

heaven is just arrogance

which sounds quite boring


Heaven and hell are

for control freaks and psychos

I choose to live now


If all you promise

is only hell or heaven

just count me out thanks


Heaven glorious

already is ours on earth

don’t damn it to hell


Saturday, September 23, 2023

Gia Civerolo


flash bulb premonitions


She said a prayer for the safety of his soul

It wasn’t just because she had given him 

a blow job once when he was feeling very low


Their core really was a deep friendship

even though there were plenty who never 

believed it could be just that


It wasn’t the way he could sing silky soft 

on a stage, yet at the same time slick like the 

Dapper Dan tonic shellacking his hair back


It wasn’t the way he could swing with his 

black & white wing-tipped shoes pointing up

at the stars and her red lips, all at the same time


It wasn’t the way he placed his hand 

gently on the small of her back while 

dancing her around the floor


Or even the way he called her “doll” 

from days gone by, reminding the 21st century

of a past or how he could never quite fit in 

like he did so perfectly wearing white zoot suits


The fact was he called every woman “doll”

It still made her feel special

Giving her a quick little tingle

Unnerving her feministic esthetic only slightly


She knew It was his sweetness always 

seeping through, no matter how many times 

people and circumstances wanted to 

beat it out of him. Beginning with his father

and then every other man who slept with his mother


His heart was always broken by some skinny “doll”

in an off- the-shoulder tight black velvet dress 

who looked good sipping a martini

but could never heal the hurt 

no matter how pretty she was


He had charisma like a black and white film hero

always down on his luck but unlike the movies

he could never quite get together by the third act 

or any act for that matter


Everything was always on a repeating loop

She could almost hear the clicks of the film frame

sprockets slapping against the metal projector


For him the endings never faded in rich velvet black

It was always the lighting flash of white light reality

too bright for his blue eyes always flickering

trying to hide under downward lids


His vintage car was never running

despite the slight trace of grease 

underneath his fingernails

It was part of their ritual 

they never brought it up

she would always volunteer to drive

even though any other time 

she never wanted too


The devil would come to him 

Not even in the desert or after 40 nights

He would say to him “Hey, yo, Daddio”

Just like he would to any other guy


They would tell each other stories

not sure if they were even their own 

They would compare their botched tattoos

leaking bad ink all over their narratives 

and bodies, they never could erase


They would buy each other drinks,

Bum smokes one right after another

Show the tear tracks on each of their arms


Parked next to the train tracks

she waited in her car for him for hours

Pretending she wasn't feeling as lonely

as the train whistle in the black night


He always came back

resting his head on her shoulder

whisper- singing “So sorry doll” 

is all it would take, then all was forgiven


That morning she heard him singing the song

in her head before it played on her radio

She hadn’t seen or heard from him in years

maybe even a couple of decades 


She didn’t have the heart

to calculate how much time

had really gone by or remember

what made her finally walk away

She stared at the mirror 

seeing only who she used to be


She put on her best vintage dress

with lined hose on the back of her legs

always remaining perfectly straight 

Not a strand of her hair ever out of place 


She carried her pocket book, not a purse

Walking out to the flash of bright daylight

slashing across her body, it almost felt like hurt


She could not shake the sound of his 

velvet voice soul serenading in her brain


She didn’t know how she knew

It had never happened before

She just knew all the sweetness 

was gone from the world that day

as she put on her cat-eye sunglasses 

walking further into the bright sun






howling for angels 


She had written so much about 

angels and their feather white wings 

and ones with black feather too


She had nothing left to say

Angels stopped whispering 

to her pen


It didn’t stop her from mourning. 

It didn’t stop her from seeing 

them everywhere.

 

In lines in the grocery stores 

flipping through shiny magazines

In the shape of night clouds


In tattooed markings on 

monarch butterflies

Asleep in doorways 

with shopping cart treasures

A white spot flying 

across her cat’s face


Luminously surrounding babies

born and those hearing 

angels singing the blues 

smiling their last breath


She walked across grass 

well worn, gingerly stepping 

over and around

white grave markers

a little piece of heaven 

for eternity, for a price 


Life is reduced to a headline

A one-line description


No not her

She was sending a siren

a scream in a high frequency

only angels could hear


She was going end 

it all in a haiku:


The angels showed up

In the graveyard.  She needed

the comfort of cliche.






you won a trip!

*(pomo haiku)


Bouncing back & forth


between heaven/hell. Landed


middle murky earth



*pomo haiku: pomo is short for “postmodern” in reference to the genre of literature that avoids absolute meaning and does not assume universality.


James Coats

Genesis 

 

God looked down on all that was created;

the stars of heaven, and the wonders of earth,

the exotic plants, and curious animal creatures   

even man to care for them all and saw it was good.

But then God thought, I can do even better

than everything I made so far, and so, created

WOMEN

Friday, September 22, 2023

Rick Leddy

Monkey on a Dog


I'm a Monkey on a Dog

He said to me

Just Hanging on 

But I don't know why

Waiting for rewards 

I know won't come 

Heaven's in a Glass

And Hell is when it's gone

I'm a Monkey on a Dog

Just Riding the Beast 

Too Afraid To Fall

Because I might Fly 

Going Round in Circles 

Dressed With Nowhere to Go

Life's a rattle in my chest

That chills me to the bone

I'm a Monkey on a Dog

It's a one way ride

Grab hold of the fur

And watch for the teeth




Daylight Moon


Day time full moon tied up

in thin black wires

Stringed silhouettes piercing homes

Powering fantasies and killing time

Rows of poles reaching to heaven

False idols jabbing the horizon

Challenging the beauty of sublime reflection

The soft white satellite laughing at the hubris of it all

As it trails across the sky




The Silence


The quiet is an invader

Assaulting us

Jackbooting over intimacy

Claiming victory over love

When did the world go silent?

She did not say to him

The angels of our better intentions falling from grace

The evening a pantomime 

of what we once had

Black nights long as winter sets in

Your lips move 

But your prayers go unheard

Heaven became purgatory

Then nothing at all

I remember when laughter was song

Before the years robbed us of sound

When noise filled our lives

The cacophony overwhelming at times

But at least it was something

Not this

Fallen words shattered at our feet

Until all that is left

Are rooms filled with us

Illiterate mind readers

Mute to each other


Mark A. Fisher

miasma hereafter


the heavens were filled with burnt offerings we sacrificed our children’s children for additional corporate earnings


passing through ledgers in whose office is required to earn millions or billions that must be repaid with hellish sufferings


some unimaginable future brings

where Moloch’s false idols have been built on the heavens were filled with burnt offerings that must be repaid with hellish sufferings


Bill Cushing

APOLOGIA

First commandment: “Thou shalt have no other gods before me.”


I,

a fallen spirit,

made a forced exit;

ultimate love for Him

led to this downfall, this

condition of torment

I now lead.


Heaven,

then, 

was ageless, changeless, 

forever and eternal— 

as I was.


Still am.


The law was laid down ages before 

man, before 

altars, before 

temples or churches, before the writing of

law itself. Then,

that First Commandment was altered and

given to mankind: trivial creatures

created out of ego,

then possessed by it. It is ego,

not knowledge,

that is original sin.


Remember this:

before you were, that command stood

for all—animals, plants,

even angels, 

but when clay and dust

were mixed

with the breath of life

to become an imposter

of their creator, 

then

even angels were told,


“Kneel before men.”


Now,

my temptations serve as testimony

to man’s worthlessness,

proving his Bible and God’s own words

correct.


The torture of souls is only

an afterthought, only

reciprocity of torment. 


For my refusal to bow,

I suffer now; 

as do you.




GATES OF HELL


Prima sezione

The Poet sits atop the lintel

contemplating original sin 

while Ugolino devours his sons

and bodies crawl over bodies, grinding

in anguished copulation of need 

never satisfied. Surrendering 

hope, desperate to attain relief,

they try but know they can never flee. 


Seconda sezione

How does one incarcerate Satan

when he was delivered already, 

consigned and impaled to sheer stone walls 

steep in the depths of searing torture 

and guarded with the care of envy?

 

Terza sezione

Incensed by the erosion of time

that softens and sabotages, the Devil calls

for cacophony between the quiet 

lightning revealing feral fortune 

as the beauty of desolation

descends into vengeance to fracture 

the force of the oppressive thunder

from millennia of violence.

Jealousy transforms rapture into 

innate bitterness while the devil, 

a species apart, stained by hostile mirth,

poisons and torments those from earth.


Quarta sezione

Because truth can be so easily 

misplaced—like extinguishing a teardrop 

of flame on a candle between a thumb 

and forefinger, one never dares to lie 

when confronting the Grand Deceiver.




SOME NOTES OF A RELIGIOUS NATURE


Jesus was sent

to die for our sins

like some package

from UPS.

He delivered the goods

to humanity

and we delivered him

back to Heaven


battered, beaten,

mutilated.

Some creation 

we turned out to be.


Thursday, September 21, 2023

Caleb Delos-Santos

A Heavenly TV Evening.

 

While typing up a teaching slide

and watching Gilmore Girls,

I feel my pretzel-eating bride

caress my tired curls.

 

Beside her rests a fluffy friend,

an orange-gray month-old,

who sleeps until the credits end.

Then, purring joins the fold.

 

I praise the Lord for my abode

and play another episode.




The First Word.

 

Tacky

was the first word

of my prized manuscript

in junior high.

 

In time,

I lost each page

of that flimsy English notebook,

but words are funny.

 

Most symbols mold with history

or melt beyond obscurity.

 

But, others

survive in minds

subconsciously

or perhaps communally

or perhaps transcendently

or perhaps heavenly.

 

Jesus is a word.

Jesus is eternity.

 

So, transitively,

does this mean

that some words

are everlasting?

 

What about

Tacky?




Another Demon Dream.

 

We loitered in suburbia,

my family and me.

We clamored over nothing

until the starless night flushed everything

 

besides a homely white streetlight,

which sweetly hung above our gossip-spilling clump.

 

At first, this seemed like a simple, silly dream.

 

So, what woke me up?

 

Eventually,

Something

crushed our nothing-chattering.

 

It was a Sound

or Feeling

or some kind of Energy

that needed, more than anything,

to consume my body.

 

The streetlight started flickering.

My family ran away from me.

The lightbulb snapped, and knife-shaped glass engulfed me.

The darkened ground devoured me.

I screamed

 

until

Something

entered me.

 

What was this

Possessive Mythic Thing?

 

Fear?

Hate?

Anxiety?

 

A Xenomorph Baby?

 

Normally,

it wouldn’t concern me

because it was a dream.

 

But, upon waking,

I didn’t feel It leave.

 

Maria A. Arana

Who wants to grapple with death? 


there is no cure for the ailments of the world

reflect on the way things were before your mind conceived tragedy

you bore no ill will nor deserted hope

and in times of strife, you struck with a wicked tongue

it should have been a knife, so the blood could sign the end on the floor

 

 

 

by the river bank


a sense of the end fills your body

consuming the life once had

gaping you sip from the water

as your ancestors did before you

damn the sickness that ensues

and damn the calamity of offering

thirst one last request

and when night blankets the earth

the stillness comes alive

 

 


toxic

 

i can’t look into your eyes

they hold the world in chains

bound and swept across the void

or is it the black hole

they call a heart?

it gathers lost souls

and dispense of the rest

like a lost button that’s never found


Alicia Viguer-Espert

The Wayfarer


Penitent with a broken heart

I cross tumultuous rivers

clothes wet, sandals on hand,

a stick of repentance to steady me

for when I pass to the other shore

where torn leaves wait in silence

praying for the wind to lift them 

to heaven. I kneel with the sisters

hoping for the good fortune of faith.




Leaving Paradise


Trees were everywhere

but the fig tree in the middle of the body

of the garden, was my favorite.

The air, sweet with bees and flowers

made me lose my mind.


I walked the enclosure barefooted

called the moon appearing on the horizon,

huge, pregnant with nectar 

drank in a juvenal bacchanalia,

Bacchus looked on sitting on a barrel

guarding the wine, sipping slowly  

infinite problems destined to remain unsolved.


Confused I stood by the gate,

ideas exited first, almost flying,

never touching the dust, 

then feelings pushed each other 

to cross the portal where senses crawled

trying to undo each other.


Rain bathed camelias and jasmine,

sweetness multiplied honeysuckle’s intensity. 

I bit the base of its corolla, pulled pistils out

and suckled little balls of ambrosia for lunch.


It happened in March, in May, in June, in August,

which means, I was always drunk,

sheltered from the rain of misunderstanding,

the cold of loneliness, 

but not the ruins of a future identical to itself.


Neither striving, nor laziness, not even

memory had any business being there.

One day, when the mood was right,

I opened the gate, and abandoned Paradise,

never to return.




The Mind


The light of the mind bright as it is, it is not

what I seek must be perennial pine trees,

bright green, sitting with like companions 

in the temple of leaves, needles pungent,

sharp like swords ready to cut through 

distractions, seductive thoughts, honey 

of a flickering phone calling to engage

with a world of plenty unnecessary news.

It’s late, I tell my mind to be quiet,

I tell my mind to be still, so I can hear

the voice of the Beloved whispering.

What I hear is the body complaining,

lumbar vertebrae, scapula, cervical sprain,    

every part clamors for complete attention.   

A voice brings to mind that day when at 6

I was scolded for something I didn’t do,

also, what I should have responded

to that teacher in college who couldn’t

give me a deserved A. I catch myself 

replying, try to stop a tsunami of thoughts 

but, I fail, again, and as I straighten 

my back, ask help from Heavens 

wondering how will I be able to listen 

with so much inner chatter.



Radomir Vojtech Luza

Lord Lavender


Spayed by their reign

Losing my brain

36 years of institutions and pain


White coats

Iron bolts


Neutral halls

Bald walls


Never knowing joy

A black toy


Holding back the tears

For years


Others making plans

For my wild and wooly glands

Freedom's cold and hard hands


Independence a hard hold

Meds, beds and doctor's heads

Rolling into Nirvana's fold


My gift quivering

Conformity shimmering


Sprayed by God's rain

Jealousy insane


The good little boy who always

Did what they wanted

Sleeping undaunted


Taking razor to wrist

On hell's bucket list




Autumn Sky


Burnt like dust

Red as rust


Thin trees

Heroine breeze

Lofting over brown bees


Fall ceiling

Flowing next to tan dreaming


Chocolate leaves

Bursting beneath bony knees


October in Central Park

Like Abraham Lincoln in King Arthur's Court


Drinking sky

Like sipping lie


On majestic buttresses so high

Devouring heaven's saffron pie




Wild Boy

(Dedicated to Fred LeBlanc of the band Cowboy Mouth)


On the outskirts of sanity

He sings of existence and vanity


No one like him nowhere

He dares us to care


Dressed in flair and

Riding a mare named success


He spins instinct and talent

Into something valiant


Long hair and

A devil may care


We are all mesmerized by his stare

Ten fingers and a drummer's glare


He takes rock n' roll

From here to there


Knocking down heaven's door

Bursting onto Nirvana's fluorescent floor


Wednesday, September 20, 2023

Marvinlouis Dorsey

 


along the way

to

hea-

ven

passing

through hell


be-

tween

here there


count-

less

U

turns 

can't be

made


many

lonely roads

for-

gotten


foot

prints left

be-

hind

blown


away-

by a last

breath

Lori Wall-Holloway

Desert Heaven


“He also made the stars. God 

set these lights in the heavens 

to light the earth…” 

(Genesis 1:16b-17 NLT)


Away from city lights

the black Mojave Desert 

sky is illuminated 

by heaven’s natural radiance

Packed in my line of vison 

are different shapes and designs 

that were created in space 

by the divine Creator


A periodic interruption 

of a falling star zips across

the universe like a splash 

of paint made to enhance

a new part of the galaxy

which waits to be discovered




Closure of the Past


“…I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. 

Now choose life, so that you and your children may live 

and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice, 

and hold fast to him. For the Lord is your life…”

 (Deuteronomy 30: 19-20 NIV)


In my past, I lived 

in a hell of self-absorption 

with a consuming 

nightmare of imperfection

enhanced by the influence

of rebellious idols in my life


As I walk away from former

days, I welcome a heavenly 

peace filled with God’s mercy 

where His grace is lavished 

on me regardless of my faults

This unconditional love 

compels me to turn from 

how I once was and towards 

life where new dreams

are formed beyond 

my imagination



Marianne Szlyk

Before My Mother Lands in Heaven,


she is a stewardess, flying

through turbulence, never crashing, never

landing.  Her skirt is too

short, showing each half-pound

creeping onto her small frame.

She cannot stop to pull

down her skirt or reapply

her makeup or fix her 

hair or even drink coffee.


The passengers plead for more

for more drinks for more

pillows more peanuts more sickbags.   

Customers call for more quiet 

as babies and grown men

howl as fat women pray 

to Jesus without a rosary.

She rolls her eyes, correcting

everyone’s grammar in her mind.


Her coworkers are friends.  They

roll their eyes as, voices

lowered, they discuss the passengers.  

While they stock the cart,

they give everyone nicknames.  They

have nicknames for coworkers, too.

They can’t find pillows; they 

fill the cart with blankets

or raincoats or sticky uniforms.

They can’t find Dramamine; they

raid their purses for M&Ms

breath mints or hard candy.


Someday this plane will land.

My mother swears that she

will go back to Maine

and never leave.  Her friends

and family will all have

to find her there.



Previously published in Blue Mountain Review as “If My Mother is in Purgatory”



Thelma at the Prado

After Bosch’s Garden of Earthly Delights


Hell might as well be on another planet,

circling a distant, winking star.


Musical instruments litter the parched surface  

where the damned swarm out from a shattered bass. 


Bosch has tattooed musical notes 

on naked bodies strewn across hard stone.


Beside an overturned table, a gap-toothed girl glares.

Balancing a die on her head like a halo,


she sings off-key to a rabbit’s blasts on a pipe.

In the background, all buildings burn.


Sinners break ranks like beetles, 

riding knives on the acidic river


to escape the flames and the artist’s gaze.



Originally published at Duane’s PoeTree



Death and the Miser

After Hieronymus Bosch’s panel of the same name


In the end, Death slips in,

the only whiteness in a room

tinged with blood and sweetly rotting 

flesh’s infectious pink.  Terra cotta curtains

are drawn against a dizzying sun.

Death’s light fingers on the door

smell of absence, not brimstone.


He is a wide-eyed neighbor

looking for gossip, looking for loot

like the green-clad brother who clutches

the miser’s coins for his own.


Death sees the blue-ish angel,

color of marble and the future’s

scrubbing powder, holding out a slim

crucifix.  The tiny devil, slimy gob

of spit and ashes, offers a bag 

of coins heavy enough to weigh

the miser down.  


Nevertheless, Death will not 

stride into this crowded sick room,

forcing the dying man to choose

between coins and crucifix, Hell and

Heaven.


He is waiting for the miser

to decide.  



Originally published in Setu.


Patricia Murphy

Hell Or Heaven


I feel like I'm in a Hell of a pickle. 

It's hell or heaven.  


It feels like hell in the pit of my stomach. 

A pain I can't explain. 

All to complain. 

Like rain 

With no gain. 


It's all the same.  

Just a game. 

With no name. 

So we remain. 

Like the movie "Fame."  


Forever a drain 

On the brain. 


Only to blame 

One another. 


Forever in a quandary. 




Hell Or Heaven 2


Hell or Heaven is a great way to live. 

Being in hell is swell. 

Not to be able to smell. 

The sweetness of life 

Is a quell 

From what we can tell. 


Now is the time to be in heaven. 

It's something around seven. 

When we are in heaven. 


We cannot believe in miracles. 

If we cannot achieve success. 

Otherwise its a mess. 

But we are the best. 


Least we expect a quest. 

Like a mirror on the wall. 

If we fall 

We can stand tall 

Or not at all.  


Like a ball 

Of fire. 


We go higher. 


PJ Swift

The light


The light was all around him.  It was impossible.  Not to feel. Promise.  It was impossible.  To imagine.  The dark.  The light was all around him.  And everywhere he went.  The light was present.   Radiating. From a benevolent force.   The light was all around him.  And he laughed.  As if anointed.  By the light.


Jeffry Michael Jensen


NAVIGATING BEWILDERMENT


My eyes were closed as the rusty wheels

Took up their destiny in the soggy sand.


A ship of many tongues was driven to the edges

Of an acidic resolution without a bone to bury.


My mathematical elevator left thousands of stones

At the bottom of a melancholy depository of distilled heavenly excuses.


No one attempted to straighten the distance between

A hellish hemisphere burning bright and the oppressors of a polluted journey.


My mineral collaboration with God took a turn beyond orderly abuse

Before the raucous singing angels could fertilize a planet.


A domestic smugness added weight to the dusty conquest of a bliss

That originated where jasmine perfumed eternity.


My oyster odes returned to the ocean for a saltshaker sanctuary

That left no explanation for a dizzy soul to confess its bewilderment.


A sombrero heart that can crack the nub of both Heaven and Hell

Takes a circulatory curve toward what can be the inexhaustible ringing of change.


Lorelei Kay

Banning the Bean Dashing home after third grade, I pushed aside our heavy front door and ran inside hollering, “Mom, I’m…” when the od...